Couldn't have asked for a more gorgeous day or the crazy amount of hours I slept last night - pure and total amazingness. Things finally seem to be falling back into place and my life seems to be getting back on track. Time to roll with the new opportunities life has for me and to make the most of it.
Update on the "Social Experiment." Sadly, I wasn't able to last more than twenty-five hours without logging into my account, but I've figured out a solution to the problem. I will be limiting myself to five minutes a day on the site until my exams are finished and my scholarships are filled out and submitted. This I can work with and this will be a far easier task to accomplish than trying to abstain from Facebook all day for an entire week.
I've started messaging someone that seems to have pretty similar interests to me. Unfortunately, he lives over three hundred miles away so meeting for coffee with him isn't a real possibility. But it's nice to have someone to talk to and chat with. As opposed to seeing "the unobtainable rollerblader" every day (and I call him that for terms of this conversation) and knowing that no matter how much I wish it so, it will never be a real possibility. It's not called giving up, it's called knowing your boundaries and limitations. It's called being faced with the reality of life. Don't mistake me for being upset about this, because I'm not. It still saddens me to know that after what happened with Jeffrey, I don't think I could ever tell "the unobtainable rollerblader" in person how sorry I truly am that I screwed things up and that I wish I could go back and correct the damage. Is the guilt holding me back or is it finally time to start moving forward? I think the latter is what's in my future.
Until tomorrow, friends :)
I'm glad you were able to come to a decision you seem to be able to live with regarding "the unobtainable rollerblader."
ReplyDeleteHappiness on the other parts as well. I don't think I'd be able to abstentine from fb, either. :/ Good luck with the adjusted goal! :}