Sincerity At The Summit

Greetings, apparent readers of this blog :)

Apparently more people than I give credit to actually read these posts and to that end, I owe an apology to two people in particular: Amelia and Gretchen. Given the events that happened last week, I think it's safe to say that the jello was out of the kiddie pool. (secret friend code for "leave me alone for a while") We can't control events in our lives as well as we think we can, despite our best attempts. I'm as guilty of this as the next person, but that should not impede the decisions we make as individuals.

In my last posting, which was the culmination of my mental breakdown, I said a lot of things that I should not have and a lot of things that I really do regret mentioning in the first place. But the mental stress and sickness that I went through last week (and am still going through this week) did contribute to it. I take full responsibility for my actions, but I don't deny that there were other causes for the reasons I acted. Sometimes when it all becomes too much, we lash out in ways we don't think about. Mine happens to be through words.

Regardless of the frustrations that always occur in life, and the fact of knowing that there are certain things about life that we can't change, one of the things I hate the most is losing those close to me. So to Amelia and her family, and Gretchen as well - I am deeply sorry for the words I wrote last week. I was not in my right mind nor was I physically well when I wrote them. Rest assured that I do feel regret for this and I attempt to make things right.

Be well, everyone.