I finally wrote a letter back to that person and, for lack of a better word, poured my heart and soul into it. Held nothing back and told him exactly what was on my mind. Whether or not I get a response, it doesn't matter. I hope there's understanding there between us that even if we can't be friends anymore, we can at least have a mutual level of respect and know where things stand for both of us. At least I've bridged the part of the gap that I created and for that, I think I've done the right thing.
On another note, life (and humanity along with that), never ceases to amaze me. Case in point: yesterday I received a message from someone who I thought had left my life forever. Someone that, to be frankly honest, I didn't give a damn as to whether or not I ever heard from again. Someone who sent me through hell last year and caused the above unnamed person more grief than I can ever hope to understand. And what that message said almost made me faint during play rehearsal. Not quite the devastation as an atomic bomb being dropped, but it was enough to make me completely space out and lose all train of thought. (Something I've been attempting to do to relax for the better part of three years).
Universe, why do you do things like this to me?
I've paid for my mistakes and made amends for some of the things in life that I deeply regret. And this is how the universe decides to reward my selfless nature? By dropping someone into my life again that I never in a million years thought would bother contacting me?
Wow......
In response to all of this, I think I'll just start blasting Nicki Minaj and hope that somehow her music erases my thought process for the next indefinite amount of time.
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